I'm an idiot.
There I was on the bus after school yesterday and there were these 3 guys standing next to me from the all-boys school. They were so, I can't even give you words. And I regret not saying one word to them. This was my chance, and it's probably the only chance I was given to at least TALK to some decent looking guys. The best part was (these guys aren't regulars on the bus) was that they even got off at the SAME stop as me!! This was my biggest chance to say something! They were (at least the one guy) was looking back at me a few times. Probably to see if I was still behind hm but that DOESN'T MATTER. Japanese men are super shy to begin with which totally sucks! I should have said something, I was debating on it, too. But I didn't. I'M AN IDIOT. I could have just been like, "can I take a picture of you guys?" Yeah, I could have. It could have either went good or bad, if bad (meaning I creeped them out) it didn't matter anyway because I would most likely (now I think I never will) never see them again anyway. If it went good, they would know I have a keitai (since I'd be taking the picture off of that) and would or would not ask for my mail address and I could have been talking to them even for that short amount of time in my life. They seemed like the type of guys who who would make it turn into a good thing. I'M AN IDIOT. I regret it sooo god damn much. This sucks. Baka baka baka baka baka baka.
But yesterday I just felt wrong. Like, I was fine as soon as I got home (maybe I was too preoccupied on regretting to notice) but then as the minutes passed I started feeling super tired and I had the feeling like I couldn't put food in my stomach. That proved to be true oce it came to dinner. I was hesitating with each spoon or gratin trying to swallow it, then after a while I noticed I was slowly starting to fall asleep, I couldn't keep my concentration focused. It was just so odd for me. This would be the 2nd time I became sick here. Well, Okaa-san realized something was wrong and then they checked me for a fever. I don't have one but to tell you the truth I wish I did. I'm not liking this, "feel terribly sick one day and the next day you're perfectly fine". Well, that wasn't entirely true. This morning I knew I couldn't manage breakfast so I told Okaa-san before she made me anything I wasn't eating. And I didn't even feel like eating my bento for lunch so I skipped out on that too. I ate it when I came home only because I didn't want to waste her food.
And I was allowed to skip today from school. Okaa-san asked me if I was going to go. I think I should have said no but I had 2 reasons to go to school. 1: today was Wednesday and Wednesdays and Thursdays are my 2 favorite days to go to school, and 2: I was hoping those 3 boys would be on the bus again. But of course I wouldn't know if the were because I was held back after school 'cause the one teacher wanted to talk with me. So I missed that bus that they were on. And I won't be on the bus again when they "could" be because the rest of this week are tests so we get out of school early and then I'll be going back to Kyuudou Club. Do you know why the teacher wanted to talk to me? It was one of the English speaking teachers. Okaa-san called the school because she was worried about me and since (well, both me and the teacher guessed this) it would be easier to explain how I'm feeling in English the teacher would just translate it back to her. I have no way to describe my situation. I feel fine, then I'm sick, and sometimes not hungry. I don't know. I wish I did know. Maybe I am getting a fever?
It was nice to finally catch up on some serious sleep though. What time did I go to bed though last night? I guess around 6:30? Yeah, and I was told before I went to sleep that I couldn't take a bath. What?? I looked at them unbelivably. I told Tonpi, "demo watashi kitanai" (but I'm dirty). She answers, "karada?" (your body). Duh. What else? But they said I can't. They're like, it's best not to take a shower when you're sick. Now, I understood the whole "don't go in the furo (bathtub)" thing because you don't want to spread the disease, but NO shower as well?? I felt gross. I mean, all I wanted was to take a shower. Not to mention I had gym class that day, but I forgot all about that so I never mentioned it (I wonder if that would have made a difference?). Cold medicine is strange here too. Did I mention it last time I took it? I don't think so, just the stomach medicine. Well, this "cold" medicine is a powder. A terrible, disgusting, aweful tasting powder. You have to put it all in your mouth then swallow it down with some liquid. It's TERRIBLE. The taste and smell makes me want to choke each time. Swallowing all those tiny beads for the stomach ache isn't nearly as compelling as this medicine.
Seriously, it's that bad.
I wanna post a blog one day about TV here. I've been meaning to do that for some time now but never got the chance. Maybe since I get out of school early the next few days I'll do it then. Maybe tomorrow even? I don't know. I need to talk about this group of guys. They are hilarious. But that new album is added!! Check out the pretty pictures^^ and Yuzu!!
There I was on the bus after school yesterday and there were these 3 guys standing next to me from the all-boys school. They were so, I can't even give you words. And I regret not saying one word to them. This was my chance, and it's probably the only chance I was given to at least TALK to some decent looking guys. The best part was (these guys aren't regulars on the bus) was that they even got off at the SAME stop as me!! This was my biggest chance to say something! They were (at least the one guy) was looking back at me a few times. Probably to see if I was still behind hm but that DOESN'T MATTER. Japanese men are super shy to begin with which totally sucks! I should have said something, I was debating on it, too. But I didn't. I'M AN IDIOT. I could have just been like, "can I take a picture of you guys?" Yeah, I could have. It could have either went good or bad, if bad (meaning I creeped them out) it didn't matter anyway because I would most likely (now I think I never will) never see them again anyway. If it went good, they would know I have a keitai (since I'd be taking the picture off of that) and would or would not ask for my mail address and I could have been talking to them even for that short amount of time in my life. They seemed like the type of guys who who would make it turn into a good thing. I'M AN IDIOT. I regret it sooo god damn much. This sucks. Baka baka baka baka baka baka.
But yesterday I just felt wrong. Like, I was fine as soon as I got home (maybe I was too preoccupied on regretting to notice) but then as the minutes passed I started feeling super tired and I had the feeling like I couldn't put food in my stomach. That proved to be true oce it came to dinner. I was hesitating with each spoon or gratin trying to swallow it, then after a while I noticed I was slowly starting to fall asleep, I couldn't keep my concentration focused. It was just so odd for me. This would be the 2nd time I became sick here. Well, Okaa-san realized something was wrong and then they checked me for a fever. I don't have one but to tell you the truth I wish I did. I'm not liking this, "feel terribly sick one day and the next day you're perfectly fine". Well, that wasn't entirely true. This morning I knew I couldn't manage breakfast so I told Okaa-san before she made me anything I wasn't eating. And I didn't even feel like eating my bento for lunch so I skipped out on that too. I ate it when I came home only because I didn't want to waste her food.
And I was allowed to skip today from school. Okaa-san asked me if I was going to go. I think I should have said no but I had 2 reasons to go to school. 1: today was Wednesday and Wednesdays and Thursdays are my 2 favorite days to go to school, and 2: I was hoping those 3 boys would be on the bus again. But of course I wouldn't know if the were because I was held back after school 'cause the one teacher wanted to talk with me. So I missed that bus that they were on. And I won't be on the bus again when they "could" be because the rest of this week are tests so we get out of school early and then I'll be going back to Kyuudou Club. Do you know why the teacher wanted to talk to me? It was one of the English speaking teachers. Okaa-san called the school because she was worried about me and since (well, both me and the teacher guessed this) it would be easier to explain how I'm feeling in English the teacher would just translate it back to her. I have no way to describe my situation. I feel fine, then I'm sick, and sometimes not hungry. I don't know. I wish I did know. Maybe I am getting a fever?
It was nice to finally catch up on some serious sleep though. What time did I go to bed though last night? I guess around 6:30? Yeah, and I was told before I went to sleep that I couldn't take a bath. What?? I looked at them unbelivably. I told Tonpi, "demo watashi kitanai" (but I'm dirty). She answers, "karada?" (your body). Duh. What else? But they said I can't. They're like, it's best not to take a shower when you're sick. Now, I understood the whole "don't go in the furo (bathtub)" thing because you don't want to spread the disease, but NO shower as well?? I felt gross. I mean, all I wanted was to take a shower. Not to mention I had gym class that day, but I forgot all about that so I never mentioned it (I wonder if that would have made a difference?). Cold medicine is strange here too. Did I mention it last time I took it? I don't think so, just the stomach medicine. Well, this "cold" medicine is a powder. A terrible, disgusting, aweful tasting powder. You have to put it all in your mouth then swallow it down with some liquid. It's TERRIBLE. The taste and smell makes me want to choke each time. Swallowing all those tiny beads for the stomach ache isn't nearly as compelling as this medicine.
Seriously, it's that bad.
I wanna post a blog one day about TV here. I've been meaning to do that for some time now but never got the chance. Maybe since I get out of school early the next few days I'll do it then. Maybe tomorrow even? I don't know. I need to talk about this group of guys. They are hilarious. But that new album is added!! Check out the pretty pictures^^ and Yuzu!!
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